America really makes me sick sometimes… Sometimes I feel like I need to leave for a while so I can maybe regain some appreciation for the freedoms I have. Just right now I feel like throwing this computer in the garbage, tossing my wallet off of a bridge and pulling a Christopher McCandless (into the wild). You can call me whiny if you want but you would just be lying to yourself. It’s like we’re in a choke-hold, held up against a wall and have nowhere to go. We are all greedy, selfish, judgmental, mean people. Myself included. I’m trying despearately to hold onto the values that my parents taught me growing up but it gets harder and harder everyday, when I can’t even feel like I can be involved in important, life-shaping decisions without getting disgusted. We can’t even have an adult discussion in this Country about who will lead us. We can’t just give without receiving anything. Even when we tell ourselves that we are, in reality, we are hoping for something in return. Don’t tell me you’re not like this. I am like this, you are like this, we all are. And money… out of all the things in the world that we just have to deal with…things that will never change and we just have to accept it, money is the absolute worst. I guess it made sense in the beginning, but it didn’t have to. If we all just took what we needed and left the rest for others, we wouldn’t need money. If we all could just share things, we wouldn’t need money. Before money existed (which I know was very very long ago), we would eat what satisfied us, and the rest was up for grabs for whoever else needed to eat. But one day someone took all the corn, leaving none for the next person. And when that next person came along, they said you can have this corn, but only for something in return. Pretty selfish and disgusting behavior if you ask me….thousands of years later and you can’t even go a day without spending a penny. Not because you want to, but because you NEED to. It just gets to me… because I believe I truly am the type of person who would take what I needed, and love to see other people enjoy what I left behind.

Goodnight